Yesterday marked the end of another wonderful and amazing weekend of spiritual work for me.
I’ll let you in on a secret: Even after so many years of teaching and doing light work, I still get nervous about how my workshops and healing sessions will turn out.
Because my sessions are channelled, no two are ever the same. I am never coached as to what to say or do. Neither am I given a heads-up as to what to expect during the session unless it is appropriate that some things be revealed to me beforehand. And I can tell you here and now that, 95 percent of the time, I have no idea what messages will come through, or how the healings or attunements will be done until they actually happen.
I can’t tell you how many times, in the early days, I was tempted to cancel my weekly healing circles because I had no idea which divine being would channel a message or a healing, what and how the meditation would come through, or even if anyone would come to the circles. Later, when I began teaching, I worried about not knowing exactly what and how I was to teach, what messages I was to share, how the attunements, recalibrations or healings would occur, or even what kind of students I could expect.
I’ve lost count of the number of times that I wanted to turn tail and run, or at least hide, until something — anything! — came up that would boost my confidence or at least offer some kind of guarantee.
Of course, things never happened the way I thought I wanted.
So week after week, I kept the promise that I had made to God, when I finally consciously chose to answer my soul calling, by preparing and simply turning up for my own healing circles. And week after week, God and His Aides kept their promise to me by providing.
Despite all my fears and doubts, angels and divine beings always turned up for the circle, a guided meditation always came through, and a healing and uplifting of body, mind and spirit always occurred — even when no one came to the circle. I actually grew to cherish those occasions, because then I was the sole beneficiary of those wonderful messages and healings.
And when I was led to begin serving as a teacher, I soon learnt that I was also the student that benefited most.
Now, so many years later, I confess that I still get a little nervous before every workshop or session that I conduct. I still have no idea, most of the time, of what will come through. But I know one thing for sure: God and His Aides continue to provide.
So to all budding teachers, healers and light workers out there, I say:
Keep at it. Don’t lose heart or give up. Your fears and frustrations are but illusion. They grow only as powerful as you allow them. When you feel discouraged, unworthy, or at a loss, go within. Look into your heart, and remember why you consciously chose to answer your soul calling. Then trust in the unconditional love and providence that is promised you by the Origin of that soul.
If you are still waiting to feel ready, I can tell you now that you are as ready as you will ever be.
If you are waiting for a sign to confirm that you are ready, then darling, you can consider this post to be the sign you were seeking.
Have faith. In God and in yourself.
You won’t be sorry.